A Time for Rebirth

There is a wild, unadulterated side in all of us. To a certain extent, we have been socialized to keep that side of us at bay, to be responsible and conforming citizens of the world. There is added pressure to sacrifice our needs for the sake of others and ignoring what our souls are guiding us to do. But I am finding in so many people (including myself) that we are being confronted with great discomfort and are feeling unfulfilled, anxious, restless, and dissatisfied with certain aspects of our lives. The Universe is encouraging us to listen to our soul's urges and convert them into action. It is a time of awakening, transformation, and rebirth.

I am personally opening my eyes to the ways in which I have restricted myself from living my life to the fullest. At the beginning of the quarantine back in March, I was grieving the loss of what I thought was my perfect life and my perfect routine. I loved my weekly yoga classes, time to work with clients and write, occasional shopping and running errands. I felt that I had worked so hard to find a good balance, and it was all being pulled from under me. But now I am realizing how life is wanting me to take things further than the comfortable place I had settled into. My past routine has fallen away for a reason. I am starting to see how I became comfortable, but was not completely fulfilled.

Today, I find myself getting more in touch with my artistic, wild, creative, and adventurous self. I am being asked to break the boundaries I set for myself to create a life of safety, stability, and complacency. It is hard. It is uncomfortable. But the dreams that I tucked away for so long... of traveling the world, of experiencing other cultures, and of being free to create and connect with that fundamentally artistic side of me... cannot be denied any longer. My soul says I cannot distract myself and suppress these urges any longer. They are there for a reason, and it is possible for me to fulfill them. It is time to fully step into my purpose.

Such immense pain is emerging with these new realizations. Pain from knowing that I have not given myself permission to honor my soul's urges. Pain from realizing how long I have suppressed my uninhibited, creative side for the sake of fitting in and conforming to expectations. I thought that I had taken a huge leap of faith by transitioning from practicing law to my current coaching and healing work. And it definitely was a life-altering decision, but I guess it's not the end of what I am being asked to do. It was only the beginning step I needed to take and now more doors are opening up for me. I feel scared but excited at the same time. My soul assures me not to be scared, that my path can and will unfold with love. I feel as though a part of me that lay dormant for so long is being awakened, and I want to give myself permission to explore it fully. I want to know who I truly am.