Creation

All my creatures, come to life

Birthed through the darkness

Of my primordial womb.

My oasis of love awaits

To quench the thirst

Of those who surrender.

The portal of infinity opens

Through the precious magic

Of my heart space.

The shamaness voices her song,

The rhythms of Middle Earth

Coursing through her veins.

The priestess commands the light

To awaken sleeping souls

From their ancestral slumber.

The light and dark collide

In the divine feminine dance

Of creation and destruction.

Divine Timing

The art of trusting divine timing requires the inner serenity of a lake. It requires stillness, presence, and complete surrender, trusting that the nascent sunbeams of dawn will inevitably pierce the dark mystery of the night. Let us allow our heart's visions to unfold in accordance with the sacred rhythms of the Universe. Its heartbeat beckons us to release ourselves completely in the rapture of its primordial dance.

Gut Connection

Ever since I was a child, I've had problems with my gut. Digestive issues. Pain. Discomfort. Bloating. Vomiting. It really came to a head these past few years when it got so bad that I would sometimes go for days without eating. My gut was so inflamed that I had no desire to eat. My gut was irritated by almost everything I ate, and sometimes my digestion would stop altogether. You could literally feel the lumps of food sitting stagnant in my stomach and intestines. It was such an uncomfortable feeling.

A few months ago, I got sent to the ER by my primary care doctor because I hadn't been able to eat for 4 days straight. That was my wake up call, and I started to pay closer attention to my diet and actually start listening to my body's signals of what was making it sick. I knew that wheat products were a huge part of the problem, but it was so hard to give up the foods I love most-- pasta, bread, and noodles. I’ve had such an emotional connection with them all my life. Still, I knew I had to make a change and decided to quit eating wheat cold turkey. I slowly started to heal the tears of inflammation. It truly changed my life because I now have the energy to focus on the things I love rather than on feeling sick. Now, it is so easy to notice when something I eat doesn't agree with me, AND it is so much easier not to eat the offending food anymore because I now know how it feels to be free of the pain and discomfort and want to stay that way.

Now, my journey has reached a deeper level in which I am becoming aware of the ways I treat my gut on an emotional and energetic level. I realized that when I am in a stressful situation, or when I am feeling guilt, regret, or shame, I store it in my gut energetically. I've been doing it from when I was a little girl to this day. You know those mortifying moments from childhood or your teenage years? Like when you feel embarrassed or ashamed and want to hide in a hole? Yup, I got into the habit of storing all those heavy emotions in my gut. It's simply a way I learned how to cope when I felt helpless, like maybe if I absorbed all the emotions, they would go away. It created a very heavy/uncomfortable/anxious feeling in my gut area that just wouldn't go away, which I then immediately tried to disconnect from by cutting off awareness to that area. You can imagine how toxic this habit can become long term.

Now that I am much more aware of the energetic interplay between my emotions and my physical body, I am learning how to reconnect with my gut and breathe through negative emotions. I am becoming aware of when it becomes tense, and then using gentle attention like patting or massaging the area to soothe it away, rather than disconnecting from it. I send my breath down to my belly and give myself reassurance that everything is ok, that I am loved, and that I am safe. It's still a work in progress, but I am starting to see the possibility of a completely healthy connection with my gut on all levels, which is super exciting!